Life is to be ENJOYED not just endured - Hinckley

I'm really sorry i've been failing at the blog lately, but I am going to do better! Life has been crazy! It gets so hard sometimes, but I am over it. As president Kimball says "Give me these mountains that I may climb" It makes all the difference in the world when you KNOW the PURPOSE of trials and about the plan of happiness. Elder Erying puts it best in his conference talk when he says "In Their perfect love for you, Heavenly Father and the Savior want you fitted to be with Them to live in families forever. Only those washed perfectly clean through the Atonement of Jesus Christ can be there." It is through our trials that we become "fitted" with them and any trial in the whole wide world is worth that. Although I don't think I will be praying anytime soon for a trial :) I am so grateful for a loving savior who makes it possible and a merciful Father in Heaven who created this plan!
So lately i've been feeling like I need to have more fun. Somewhere along the road in the past 7 years of trial after trial, ha ha...not kidding....I have forgotten how to RELAX and enjoy life. There is a reason for it, i've had to work really hard to overcome, change, heal, forgive, repent, ect. ect. (like we all do!) but I didn't need to forget about enjoying life, silly me. So that is my new goal: Enjoy everyday, even in the midst of trials (yes it is necessary that this be a goal for me)... i've finally come to terms with the fact that there is no end point, that trials are never going to end in this life, life is one big trial for everybody. BUT we get to choose what we will do with the trials we are given. So I choose to find Enjoyment everyday no matter how hard the day is. Look around, there is evidence everywhere that our creator wants us to ENJOY life and everything he has given us! The best things in life are simple and if we don't soak them up in the moment we'll be missing out on the sweetest moments in life. Recovery isn't about learning how to stay absitinent from your addictive behavior its about living in a way that you don't need your addiction anymore....its about learning how to really LIVE!

D&C 122: 7-9

2 Nephi 2:25

2 Nephi 9:18



My happy moments and tender mercies as of late:

The sunshine! oh my gosh I love it! (minus today, curse the rain! but april showers brings may flowers!)

My new bright blue scrubs

Walking barefoot in the grass

Kneaders with mom and truly enjoying a raspberry cream cheese crossaint with NO guilt!...It's a miracle people!

Being inside my Hubbys hug- best place to be, seriously I love him.

Easter sunday on grandmas deck with the fam

Boiling eggs for the first time ever (don't judge!)

decorating Easter eggs

Sarahs GJesus egg

Hiding Easter eggs

taking a walk to roll easter eggs down a hill

throwing easter eggs

Doing my hair strait for the first time in a bajillion years

Summer nights (in April)

Grandma Great

going for a walk hand in hand with my hubby

Birthday Din with Dad and Lori! SO much fun, love them

Finding them the perfect balloons

Seeing them happy

Killer enchiladas and Mexican rice

Easter candy for only 34 cent's a bag

just looking for the cents symbol on my computer :)

Christopher loving pinterest

Mike coming home and hugging me like he hasn't seen me for days

eating without #'s

Flowers from my awesome in-laws

Going to the temple and deciding not to analyze, think or figure out but just to ENJOY the spirit

Cream Soda

Feeling loved, even better: loving.

Seeing Mike's missionary Fire come out

Taking pizza to the stanleys and them bringing me cookies

chopped

Re-watching conference talks

Ross

Reading my journal from when I was 10 and in every entry it said: I need to get some rest I better get to bed. ha ha yea, 10 years old.

Getting to help people for my job

Finally taking my first picture of the year since my new years resolution was to take more pics. (hey it only took me 4 months!)

My hubby, did I say I love him? Cuz I do. A lot.

When I was in the depths of ED. I didn't notice any of these things. At my worst I wore the same clothes everyday, big baggy pants and a hoodie (in the summer) because It hid my body. I didn't notice flowers or sunshine. I went days without speaking. Those are days that I don't like to think about. But they make me SO VERY grateful for TODAY.