Things I've learned

I'm back! Sorry about the break but I had to take some time to figure out if blogging is what I really want to do...and it is! But I don't know when i'll be blogging... I don't want to say i'll do it everyday because then i'll be doing it just because I have to and my posts may not be very good. So I am going to blog when I am INSPIRED to...which will probably be pretty often because I am SUPER PASSIONATE about this stuff. This stuff being helping people feel good about themselves and realize their TRUE identity in a world that is trying to tear them down and feel "never good enough" (just so they can make money). And of course helping people find freedom from Eating Disorders/addiction/depression/whatever hardship they encounter. So stay tuned I should have some pretty good posts coming your way!

During this little break I have really learned A LOT. 

#1- Mistakes are good! My whole life I have been kind of fearful of trying something new. I just don't like to walk into the dark. I like to be in control and know whats going to happen. But lately I have realized that making mistakes and trying new things is how you learn. Try something new and if it doesn't work out, well then ya know. Brilliance and mastery always comes after mistakes.

#2- Jesus Christ is my strength. I am so so so so weak. Cleaving to Jesus Christ through the way I live my life strengthens me and makes me like a new person. He is my strength, he is my everything and I want to give my life to him and live it the way he wants me to. This brings me more happiness, more peace and more joy then anything else in the world. He is so good to me. I am nothing with out him. 

#3- It doesn't matter what anybody else thinks about you. What matters is what God thinks of you and what you think of you. Of course I care what others think about me, we all like people to like us. But I don't worry about what other people think of me. Worrying never made anything better anyway. And when I choose not to worry, things usually work out

#4- I like who I am. separate from who anybody else is. This may seem silly, but in the past I have always compared how I measure up to other people. I always thought "oh this person is so much better at this then I am, or so much more outgoing, so much funnier (funnier?), etc. etc. etc. But I have finally decided to focus on my strengths. We are all different, and we are all given different gifts. There is no one right way to be. I may not be the most well-spoken, charastmatic, book smart person but I am compassionate, hard working, and strong. Instead of trying to be like everybody else, I want to embrace who I am and have confidence in how I do things and what I believe in. I have a lot of flaws, insecurities and shortcomings but I like who I am. I have finally stopped nagging myself with all my failures and weaknesses and stopped comparing myself with others. It has allowed me to embrace being me. I am different then everyone else, and I LOVE diversity. There is a reason for it. I'm sure I won't be perfect at this, and I'm sure i'll have my days but I have come a loooong way in this aspect. Anywho LOVE who you are, it will help you love others too, which brings happiness. Don't try to be like me, don't try to be like that girl that you envy, BE YOU. Self Confidence comes from doing what you know is right, and knowing that you are proud of YOU.

#5- Through Intuitive Eating I have learned that Taking care of my body and having it healthy, vibrant and active feels good and is so important to me and that it is going to be something I value my whole life. Taking care of my body is vital to my recovery, it IS recovery. My eating disorder was complete opposite of taking care of my body. I despised my body, I wore the same clothes everyday for almost three months, (gross I know, but I did wash them duh, that just shows you how depressed I was) In my ED I FEARED food, it was my worst enemy. I didn't want it in me, I didn't understand that my body really needed it, I thought calories, carbs, and fat, were bad. In order to recover I have had to become FRIENDS with food. I LOVE food! Instead of fearing it, I value it. I see it as something so important for my body and as something that can help my body feel alive and energized. I have learned that my body feels SO awake and happy when I eat nutritiously. I like the word nutritous instead of healthy, because in our society healthy has become so distorted. Healthy now days consists of rice cakes, sugar loaded greek yogurt, low calorie-fat free nutrionally deprived foods. I have decided with my kids I am going to use the term "super foods" instead of healthy. Nutritious food is food that is good for your body, that god intended to go in your body, and that is the least mad-handled that you can find it. Anyway I will be posting more about my beliefs when it comes to what foods we choose to put in our bodies and maybe even post some recipes. I am becoming quite the cook! 

#6- I am so blessed to have my family. I have the best husband in the world and the cutest daughter in the world- but I already knew that! 

Anyway I am happy to be back! I am so grateful for my life, God, my savior Jesus Christ and all my heavenly and earthly angels that have helped me get here. (you know who you are) I know God loves me, and that is not something that I have always felt. He loves you too, I promise that if you seek him he will come to you.